With the slew of blog posts, videos, and overall discussions going around recalling the tumultuous year that was 2016, I thought I might share my experience in my little corner of the world – or, as it seems, the internet.
While there is no denying that 2016 was a year of loss – my most notable and most devastating being David Bowie – I also have to admit that 2016 was kind of great. Personally, I started a recovery that was healthy, productive, and most of all, safe. Though most of it proved to be a very bumpy ride and something I shed a lot of tears over, coming into 2017 I feel as though I am finally starting to find out what works for me and the kind of life I want to live.
In work – both in blogging, vlogging, and university – I saw a massive improvement. Although I haven’t been as active as I would like to be with the blog or my YouTube channel, I have discovered what makes me excited and the kind of content I would like to create. That, I can say whole-heartedly, is such a great feeling (and one I intend to act upon in 2017).
University has been such a ride for me. In first moving to Scotland and starting an education in a system all completely different from the one I’m used to, I found the first semester of my first year to be the most frustrating and tough tests of my will yet. However, towards the end of my first year, and having just finished the first half of my second year, I have seen such improvements. Not only in the work itself – where I find my writing to be miles better than it used to be – but also in the way I work. Part of this is largely due to my recovery process, and how fuelling my body has also fuelled my brain. I find I am focusing much more and much better than I used to, and forming topics or ideas in ways I can truly say I am so proud of.
Finally, and best of all, 2016 was the year that started off with the person who has now become the centre of everything good in life. Famously among our friends, Lewis and I met on New Years Eve last year. I wouldn’t say that it was love at first sight – seeing as we did not know each other at all, but I will never forget the night I stayed up until five in the morning talking about books, family, music, and books (if you can’t already tell, Lewis and I love literature :)). Just like that, I was staring at this beautiful man who looked me straight in the eye and listened to every word I said, as if it was the last thing he would hear. Needless to say, I have since found myself terrifyingly, blissfully in love.
Through the political turmoil, personal strife, and the unfathomable amount of loss 2016 brought us, I am, also, trying to do what I have seen so many others do – focus on the things that happened in the past year that brought a smile to my face and tears of joy to my eyes. One lesson I have taken from the past year is that I am lucky to be alive. To be able to listen, touch, feel, and experience.